With the last week approaching (exam week), and the departure of all my new friends, leaving my new home, and my boyfriend looming in the air, I can't help sporadically go from laughing to crying... and I can't figure out why! Here are my thoughts to as why:
1. Everything I have come to know and be comfortable with is about to change... once again.
2. I am going to have to say good bye to people I have met and grown to love, not knowing when I will see them again.
3. I need to decide if I want to stay on my own for 2 months or if I want to go home (its always on my mind and causing me a lot of stress... one the one hand, I know I will never have this opportunity to travel with Jason ever again, but on the other hand I really feel like I need to go home, I need familiarity, and a stable life for a while...)
4. I think I've finally let myself realize that I am in fact in love with my boyfriend... just in time to leave him.
5. I miss me family even more that I have seen my mom and sister and realize that I'm missing out on being a part of their lives (going to miss Jenna's first prom, Jason's last band concert etc)
6. Exams start in two days and I haven't started studying
7. I am just an emotional person
You already know what I said about many of these topics, even tho you did not ask. I will talk about others with you soon (in person). I think you have natural tenancy to look at the glass half empty sometimes (BB, selling and other things) and it is hard to view it as half full but if you turn around each thought listed to half full (positive), one can only say - WOOO, what a great time you have had and experienced. Gee you could be back in Minn just going to class every day and hoping for the snow to melt with 60,000 other students!
ReplyDeletePick your self up, have a great week and remember, it could always be worse. You have had a wonderful life so far and I only see it getting better.
what'd you decide shannon? I didn't know that your staying there was up for discussion. I thought you and Jason had your travels all planned. Good luck in whatever you decide, have a good time! ~Megan
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