Zach decided today that he just needs time for himself... and mentally, logically, I understand. However, my heart and body don't understand. So I forced the issue, and that's it.
We're done.
Before we started going out (again) we decided that this time it was all or nothing. We had too much history and feelings to have it just be maybe. We gave it a shot, and I found out that love sometimes... just isn't enough.
At least now I know that I have a lot of love to give, and I deserve to be happy. I will find someone that wants me, loves me, and will want to stick with me through everything. I and I will give the same in return.
Until that time... it's all about me, baby. Time to find God, good friends, and new adventures. Watch out world, here I come!
Hey girl!
ReplyDeleteThis is the first time I'm seeing these posts and I'm so sorry! :( It looks as if you've been through hell, break-ups completely and utterly SUCK. But I want to encourage you sweet Shannon, don't allow your heart to be hardened to love. I know right now it's the last thing you are looking for...but one day you will wake up and just KNOW that you are ready to get out there again. We were made for relationship, and it's normal and okay to take some "me" time right now, but you will want love again, and when that time comes your heart needs to be open. Girl--you are WAY too precious, and have excellent qualities that need to be shared. And quite honestly, if there is a desire in your heart to be married, GOD put it there--so He will fulfill it. I'm not going to waste breath spewing out stupid cliches, but I will say-there is nothing good about breaking up-it is truly raw. Seek God, girlfriends, and greatness right now Shannon--and your gift will find you.
I love you sweet one--call me anytime.
Teri
It's really over, you made your stand
ReplyDeleteYou got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is thru, I'm gonna find another you
You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you
When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too
So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you