Sunday, January 31, 2010


Conversation about the future:

Person 1: "I hate doing the same thing every day, and nothing exciting to look forward to, I don't want that"

Person 2: "But that's what the real world is, you wake up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, maybe watch tv, and do it all again"

Person 1: "But what if I want more than that?"

Person 2: "That's just the way life is in this country. You have vacation days to look forward to"

Person 1: "So 10 days are fun while 354 are horrible... If that's the way it is I would rather move to France or Germany where they have 24 days of vacation a year!"

So starts my quest for happiness in everyday life. If the above is the fate I am destined to be an active part of society, I might as well find a way to make it some what bearable... or even better... Exhilarating and Vivacious! My new goal each day is not to "make it" through, but to find at least one thing to share with someone, smile about, and remember. I want to live. My NEW new years resolution.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Moving on and growing up...

Welcome back to blog-life. It has been a long time and a lot has changed since I returned home in June.

For some reason I had this idea that growing/changing as a person, and becoming more open-minded could only be achieved abroad. Now don't get me wrong, it's definitely a lot easier to see the changes and differences when you are hit in the face with it, but its definitely not the only way. And for this, I have decided to start writing again.

I have so many ideas, hopes, dreams, goals... and I know that if I don't share them with someone or if I don't write them down (even if no one reads this) that they will never be realized and will remain just that... ideas. Dreams. Hopes. I have discovered that my greatest fear is not living life to the fullest, not finding my passion, not finding a purpose, not discovering what else is outside my Midwestern bubble, and not challenging myself to see things the way other people see them. I am always told to find a passion, find something you can live, breath, eat, and sleep... but where is mine?

I had thought it was traveling and the thrill of discovery while challenging myself outside of my comfort zone. However, while I was abroad and traveling alone it no longer was... but rather quite lonely. So instead I can conclude that it is the people, helping and experiencing with others the joys and wonders of traveling and the discovery that goes with it. This led me to the idea to seek information about study abroad counseling on campus. Long story short: I didn't get the job.

So, I am focusing on my studies and my internship with a technology company this semester hoping to find a new passion there. In the mean-time I will try to figure out this thing we call "life" and bide my time until my next travels...