No relationship is easy... but what about a relationship that has always been long-distance... and has been going on for 3 years (with a 1yr break in the middle)?
What do you do when someone grows to resent the relationship, sees it as a burden, but still claims to love you?
Do you sit around hoping you will have a chance, some day, to spend more time together, work things out, or just make the leap of faith... OR, do you accept it for what it was (a great learning experience, filled with first loves, and great moments) and try to move on?
Is it possible for someone to claim to want to marry you one day, and ask for a "break" the next?
Do people that go on breaks ever get back together... or is that just a prolonging way of saying "we're done"??
How can your heart tell you one thing and your mind tell you something completely opposite? Which one do you listen to?
How do you deal with a broken heart... how do you deal with being dumped for the first time? How do you deal with losing your first and only love?
How can you move on when you were so ready to love and to be loved? How can you grow and move past it without shutting yourself off completely?
How do you try and do daily things like: sleeping, eating, going to work... pretending to be okay when your heart tells you it won't be okay?
How long should you wait before you "get back out there"? What if you don't want to...
All of these what-ifs and the only advice that keeps ringing in my head are little notes my mom sent me when I was selling books:
~"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow"."
~"Keep the promises you make to yourself"
And I intend to do both of those.