Zach decided today that he just needs time for himself... and mentally, logically, I understand. However, my heart and body don't understand. So I forced the issue, and that's it.
Before we started going out (again) we decided that this time it was all or nothing. We had too much history and feelings to have it just be maybe. We gave it a shot, and I found out that love sometimes... just isn't enough.
At least now I know that I have a lot of love to give, and I deserve to be happy. I will find someone that wants me, loves me, and will want to stick with me through everything. I and I will give the same in return.
Until that time... it's all about me, baby. Time to find God, good friends, and new adventures. Watch out world, here I come!